06/10/06 - 9:01 p.m.

Last night, walking home from the train station, I felt good. If I just get enough sleep, I'd realized, I can eliminate most of my problems. Depression, tiredness, memory loss, digestion...

I told myself to let go; feel what time of day it was. Allow my self to feel the tiredness.

I think I spend a lot of time not wanting to be open to the world, and the way things are - just because I'm not sure I can trust it. But I think there's more reasons to trust now. More stability.

I'm going to bed...