02/01/03 - 11:00 a.m.

She didn't answer my email.

I couldn't figure out why I felt so distracted Saturday - and then I realized that I still had feelings for the woman I dated through Thursday. I think I have an eager enthusiasm now that's got no place to go now.

I called her, but she didn't answer.

And no, the online personal ads don't really work.

I should be using this time to get in tune with myself. But I don't want to. I've been bumbling around, having trouble focussing.

And wasting a perfectly good sunny day...