05/18/09 - 5:19 p.m.

I'm not really sure what to do with myself any more.

I mean, I used to have this bad habit of putting too much importance on external things. But if you actually conquer that habit - then why do you need to do anything?

If I had a solid sense of who I was - and what my goals were - that could pull me through the day. Maybe I'm moving in that direction, and if I wait it'll occur spontaneously over time.

But then that would mean that I'd do nothing until a more productive personality materialized...