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12/05/07 - 6:53 p.m. Depressed. Not sure why. I sent a friend an email about something he did yesterday. Didn't hear back. Maybe that's it. The email was non-chalant -- a casual "Hey dude what's up with that?" And that felt wrong, because I was really pissed, and he was my friend so I should've been able to tell him how I felt. That was putting myself out there, since the original plan had been to not let him know that I knew it was him. I trusted him by letting him know I knew -- and not making a big deal about the bad thing. And then: no reply. Maybe I just shouldn't have friends whose loyalty can be trumped by their own internal anxieties. Maybe I get too excited about the fact that someone really needs me. Independence starts here.
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