12/01/07 - 11:38 a.m.

Watched an old movie this morning.

I've got to start getting healthy. But I'm too tired to exercise. Still, maybe the sunshine and getting out will help. Maybe I'll bribe myself with a new book...

What I'm really trying to do it keep from falling into my old habits. The movie was about a bad cowboy who find a welcoming new home among the good homesteaders. I need to trust and be who I am - and to value that goodness; the simple goodness of doing that.

I wish I had some kind of structure for it. (I have no idea what a grown-up is supposed to look like.)

Off to make myself eat spinach and tofu...