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3/30/02 - 2:20 It's a sunny day. I'm going outside. I've been fighting anger and depression. It started last weekend. Which is why I've been watching lots of movies. Suspense, to try to expunge the anger. Then fast-paced sex farces. Lying still, watching a movie, sometimes modifies my mood. Exercise and sunshine couldn't hurt either... I've been asking myself about the friends I'm alienating -- if it's a healthy development. As I start to pay attention to myself again, I'm suddenly less willing to get into a charade of mutual niceness. Less needing of another's validation, and less willing to overlook bad treatment to accept it. It's a heavy question. One of several I've been grappling with over the last week. Anyways, that's why I haven't written since Tuesday. I appreciate you coming around to read my diary.
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